You know, I know there are so many folks who are in SUCH need. They need a breakthrough and they needed it YESTERDAY..........
I know God is NEVER late. I know He is right on time.........but then there are those who really are living right before the Lord and have waited and believed, etc., and it really seemed that God was late. I am not saying He was........but sometimes folks need money YESTERDAY and a long time back.
My husband was laid off on April 26. My dad dies March 28. And there have been many other things that are REALLY heavy that have happened before and after his layoff. One being car issues that you wonder WHEN WILL THIS STOP! I mean, really. So much. Then
our AC does not function but thank God for window units. And I could go on and on. We all are still trying to "deal" with the loss of dad and all that goes with that. Moving things out of the house, paperwork, etc. And family issues on top of that with siblings, etc. Anyway, I am NOT at all trying to complain......but I am seeing so many people lose hope and I am STRUGGLING to keep mine and hold and NOT get down into depression. I mean, going to the store, well, can't buy this and can't buy that, got to pay a bill instead, etc. And trying to find a job with the gas prices..........best stay home and look online, etc. So many things......so much going on. I can't even go be with and visit my mom AT ALL LIKE I WANT TO! Many of us have not felt well, etc.
So.......what I am saying, too, is us faith people truly know what to say, how to stand on the Word., believe that you receive, call those things that be not as though they are, declare, proclaim, decree, and so much more............but when one is going thru this and has to do her best to TRY and calm her child down because she is in fear of going down the tubes, and is so frustrated, as are the parents sometimes, and mom constantly saying we WILL have our breakthrough, it is here, we are coming out and on the other side, God is delivering us, etc.,
but day after day after day and for SO SO SO LONG.........and nothing and nothing and nothing is YET manifested..........I will tell you, this is NOT easy and it is draining and exhausting. Try and tell that to your child that everything is going to be alright. Her faith is not "there" yet.
So many faith people are SO QUICK (as I used to be) to say all the "right" answers but I was also not going through anything at the time that was major. We can SO HELP those who are but when it seems your whole life is going down the tubes (it feels), it is different. Everybody has all the "right" answers but sometimes just love and understanding is what is needed. My spiritual parents are the Copelands. I listen to them constantly. I have Hagin stuff, Joyce M. stuff, and Smiths WIgglesworth, and John Lake, and I could go on and on and on. But you know, sometimes, IT JUST IS NOT ALL THAT EASY! It IS a standing and standing and standing.
I would like agreers to believe that my husband has a GOOD job NOW NOW NOW! That ALL bills are paid for ON TIME! That we have gas money, that we have GOOD transportation, ..........basically BREAKTHROUGH NOW! My daughter has been so uptight and so concerned.
And yes, I tell her all the faith and right answers. I really do. We are FAITH PEOPLE! And in Gal.3 it talks about people of faith are blessed, happy, and favored. I have been quoting that verse for SO LONG..............and I BELIEVE IT.............but will I get to experience it before the rapture..........I SURE WANT TO AND HAVE PLANNED TO!
I guess I have gotten a bit weary (and yes, I know the verses for that as well and read them AND TRYING NOT TO BE WEARY). We DO tithe, give, etc. But there has been no income coming in. But whenever anyone gives us anything, we tithe of it. Someone gave me a Olive Garden gift cert. We tithed off of that. My husband mowed someones yard and they gave him 35 dollars. We tithed off of that. My mom even gave us 35 dollars for some work we did for her (though we sure do try and stop her from doing that and usually we are successful but not this last time), we tithed off of that, too. Mother's Day money, we tithed. We give above it. But listen, we are looking at that checkbook and we are saying all the right things over the checkbook.....and we have stood and stood and stood............we want to SEE the change. We have for YEARS! Also, we know about Eph. 6 and the verse about when you've done all......STAND! We have been. But I will be VERY HONEST...............WE ARE TIRED! Something has GOT to change.
We are NOT the only ones. We know of others in our church who are without jobs or they need a breakthrough, etc. So we know it is NOT just us. I hate it when people say, "You are not the only ones going thru a hard time!" Like we don't already know that and how does that help us anyway. BUT WE DO CARE for those folks. We really do. We try and do all we can for others as much as it is possible. We really do. We refuse to HOLD BACK.
So what on earth am I saying in all of this? PRAY FOR US PLEASE FOR BREAKTHROUGH! Pray my husband Mark gets a job ASAP, like today! It is Friday already. Pray for us for our finances, transportation, and just breakthrough all around. Sad to say, we are just "skipping" over Father's Day. At least, it seems that way now. Same was true for Mother's Day. My husband will just have to be satisfied with an ecard (which he would be) from his family. We will go up to my dad's grave Sun. or Mon. His birthday is Monday. He would have been 84 Monday. He was also a WWII Vet. Hero! My dad IS a HERO! I miss him. And my mom IS my best friend and this is not easy for her either.
We appreciate your prayers! Really we do. Please don't write back to me with a bunch of preaching. I DON'T NEED THAT! I get that galore already. Preaching, teaching, etc. We just need HUGS and LOVE and PRAYERS! I know all about all the right faith answers.
I remind myself of them all the time anyway. I glue myself to prayer and God's Word. IF you feel you have a Word from God for us, please share. WANT THAT! But please, don't scold, or spank, or slam, or fuss, etc., for anything that I have said. Faith folks sometimes do that. I have even done before, in the past, but learned that that doesn't work well. GOT TO LOVE! We need SUPPORT in prayers and love and any words the Lord has for us.
Thank you for your time in reading me "vent." I AM EXPECTING BREAKTHROUGH! Hope I have some agreers!
God Bless You All! I pray all is well with ALL of you! We have to remind ourselves WE ARE IN THE BLESSING and THE BLESSING IS WORKING FOR US!
Blessings!
Jan